Anxiety

Have you ever felt so anxious before?
You feel sick to your stomach that you're not sure if you're about to puke or have really loose bowel.
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Well, that's how I feel right now. I can't sleep at all. It's been a week or more that I just cannot sleep. Many ask me, even mama, if I'm just excited.

No. This is not excitement. This is me entering my panic mode. I'm anxious, nervous, scared.


Oh yes.

Lord, I know everything will work out because You are working in my life right now.

I will be still.

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OGCT (oral glucose challenge test)

From what I have heard among my Filipino friends and Japanese students and friends who have been pregnant, this test was not common to take.

Is it okay to rant?

Hello hello to 22 weeks! I'm very happy that I am pregnant, and May 22, 2014 my baby in my tummy turned 22 weeks and it's awesome! That day, baby moved A LOT, it was like s/he was celebrating with me. So I was really really happy -- even though there was a 1 hour stress at work. (Yes, 1 hour ... hmmm...)

So, Kyle and I really want to have a baby girl. We are really praying for it.

Whenever people tell me, "It will be a boy, let's bet on it!" or "I want you to have a boy." or "You're showing signs of having a boy!" I get really annoyed. -_-;; Why? Because I WANT TO HAVE A GIRL > < If God gives me a boy, then I will be happy of course because my baby is God's miracle and gift for my husband and I, but I would really be very happy to have a girl as a first born. Little girls are so fun, and cute and they can have oh soooo cute stuff.. Boy stuff are seriously limited and all look the same.. ;3; It's my first baby, I really wanna have fun with the baby (yeah -- I imagine it to be like playing -- I know the responsibilities but nonetheless I really want to have a baby girl).

I know others have fun turning pregnancies into a guessing game, but please stop stressing me out with it. I do sometimes feel as if every time I pray to have a baby girl, there are people who counter-pray it. TT_TT Please don't do that.

It's my husband and my baby right? Please stop turning into a betting game, or just a regular game. Please stop antagonizing my prayers. We really do want to have a baby girl.

I dunno has any other mom-to-be ever experienced the same thing I am going through right now?

9Weeks and 5Days

Soooo the kind of morning sickness has kicked in. I say kind of because its more of a "I have to eat or I'm going to puke" feeling. I don't constantly go to the bathroom to vomit, but I do get the feeling that it's gonna come out, so I eat crackers or banana or potato chips.

My mom now keeps telling me that I have to stop eating too much or I will be miserable after the baby comes. TT_TT

What do you think?

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